we put too much pressure on deciding how our life is going to pan out... and we always have to decide this moment. it has to be done now. when we finish year 12, its like you should have a plan for the next 20 years.. heck, with life. you cant plan for tomorrow half the time. its good to have a plan but its also good to know that your plan will probably change somewhere along the way. for better or for worse.
truth is, i have no passion for anything at the moment. i've lost every inch of any passion i had. i dont know how to plan my next step, and im not okay. im not okay at all. i can pretend that its only been the past month that its been like this. but it hasnt, its been longer. though not much longer, i know what killed my passion and i know what it was that took another stab at my lifeless passion yet again before it could be reborn.
i dont know how to plan anything. and i can just hope along and hope for something to look forward to in life, cause right fully i have nothing. and i wish i can come up with something before the 21st of January which is getting closer and closer and things aren't being solved as it gets closer. Infact it a way, its getting worse. I dont know what to say to fix it, and I dont really want to let anyone in.
damn if you do, damn if you dont.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
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Showing posts with label about me. Show all posts
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Sunday, November 11, 2012
lets go..
tomorrow i will be having a productive day, i will get the bills paid. i will sort out the budget. i WILL get back into my fitness, my body and my health need it, especially my happiness. i may not and probably wont get a client but i will hope that something goes down well. i will get it out there that im a good beauty therapist with affordable pricing. :)
oh and i will do a make up post for my beauty blog http://beautyineveryage.blogspot.com.au
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
oh and i will do a make up post for my beauty blog http://beautyineveryage.blogspot.com.au
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
2004 - 2012
over the years, ive been a poser and a half. things dont really change all that much.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Thursday, August 09, 2012
fell in love with my webcam again
so since having a new computer, i've fell in love with taking photos on my webcam again. i mean who wouldnt?
eating a rockmelon and taking photos. yeah why? you can tell i have a really hard and high pressure job. not.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Thursday, August 02, 2012
Day 65 - The final picture of yourself.
saturday night hanging with friends.
AND I FINALLY FINISHED THE 65 DAY CHALLENGE. only took me just under 9 months. which is should of taken just over two. opps. haha.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Saturday, December 17, 2011
today
i fucked my toe nail polish, but i dont wanna take off the polish and redo them. someone come paint them for me?
my fingers are pretty though :)
and im hot, up myself much?
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
my fingers are pretty though :)
and im hot, up myself much?
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Friday, December 16, 2011
Monday, December 05, 2011
my life
checking facebook for friends. no friends
being mad addicted to posting shit on tumblr.
that being, both of my tumblrs.
http://freshandfr33.tumblr.com
http://itsonlysaraagh.tumblr.com
being mad angry that i have to do 30 hrs of work experience a week when im meant to be looking for a job. fuck you wise employment. i hope you rot. i am making a complaint to centrelink no doubt. fuckers.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
being mad addicted to posting shit on tumblr.
that being, both of my tumblrs.
http://freshandfr33.tumblr.com
http://itsonlysaraagh.tumblr.com
being mad angry that i have to do 30 hrs of work experience a week when im meant to be looking for a job. fuck you wise employment. i hope you rot. i am making a complaint to centrelink no doubt. fuckers.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Monday, November 28, 2011
bang me?
please dont actually! this is just cause all i ever do is post photos of myself. ive had alcohol and now i wanna go out. fail at life. i might go clean my car instead. blergh.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
the a to z of me
i feel like doing something long and possibly boring for you, but great for me. :)
A -Age – i am a ripe young age of 19, and im turning 20 in just over two months. scary.
B - Best holiday – I can't say i've really had any good holidays yet. but im sure there will be one to come :)
C - Chores you hate – dishes. ew.
D - Dogs – kane's dog, lilo? shes cute i guess.
E - Essential Start to Your Day- nothing really, cleanse my face?
F - Favourite colour – yellow. hence my yellow car. :)
G - Gold or silver – silver.
H - Height – 153cm?
I - Instruments you play – zip
J - Job title – umemployed, but hopefully not for long.
K-Kids- im only 19, so none as of this point.
L - Live – in Western Suburbs of Sydney, Australia. For those that know the area, i live in Bligh Park.
M - Mother's name – Caroline
N - Nickname – bloss, lucy, sez. to name a couple.
O - Overnight hospital stays – never.
P - Pet Peeves – whiners.
Q - Quote from a film- uh, idk.
R - Right or left handed – Right.
S - Siblings – Two full brothers, three half sisters, dads trying to have a third kid with his new wife too. so shit.
T - Time you wake up – 5:30am. i hate my boyfriend being unlicensed. :(
U - Underwear – currently pink
V - Vegetable you hate – peas are gross.
W - What makes you run late – my laptop.
X - X-rays you've had – my teeth/mouth
Y - Yummy food you make – cheese toasted sandwiches. nah i made nachos once.
Z - Zoo animal – lions and tigers. :)
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
A -Age – i am a ripe young age of 19, and im turning 20 in just over two months. scary.
B - Best holiday – I can't say i've really had any good holidays yet. but im sure there will be one to come :)
C - Chores you hate – dishes. ew.
D - Dogs – kane's dog, lilo? shes cute i guess.
E - Essential Start to Your Day- nothing really, cleanse my face?
F - Favourite colour – yellow. hence my yellow car. :)
G - Gold or silver – silver.
H - Height – 153cm?
I - Instruments you play – zip
J - Job title – umemployed, but hopefully not for long.
K-Kids- im only 19, so none as of this point.
L - Live – in Western Suburbs of Sydney, Australia. For those that know the area, i live in Bligh Park.
M - Mother's name – Caroline
N - Nickname – bloss, lucy, sez. to name a couple.
O - Overnight hospital stays – never.
P - Pet Peeves – whiners.
Q - Quote from a film- uh, idk.
R - Right or left handed – Right.
S - Siblings – Two full brothers, three half sisters, dads trying to have a third kid with his new wife too. so shit.
T - Time you wake up – 5:30am. i hate my boyfriend being unlicensed. :(
U - Underwear – currently pink
V - Vegetable you hate – peas are gross.
W - What makes you run late – my laptop.
X - X-rays you've had – my teeth/mouth
Y - Yummy food you make – cheese toasted sandwiches. nah i made nachos once.
Z - Zoo animal – lions and tigers. :)
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
day 28 - a picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
physically. my hair is longer and i now have blonde in it. and my make up is looking a whole lot better. i would say im happier but i dont think thats the case. but i dont live at home anymore, and i dont feel as heart broken as i did last night. though i still have my moments. but im also about a week away from being a fully qualified therapist instead of just a beautician. so glad that its finally happening. been waiting for this forever.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
day 14- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
bloss - (hence my tattoo) my dad has called me this for years, and to be honest, im not sure what its linked to or what its even got to do with my name. it has just stuck and i love it.
lucy - what mum has always called me. again i have no idea why or what its got to do with my name
sez/sezza - what the hobovillians called me and it seem to catch on as well as sezlad.
thats it.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
sez/sezza - what the hobovillians called me and it seem to catch on as well as sezlad.
thats it.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Sunday, October 09, 2011
just updating yo
What's your full name?
sarah elise holt, please to meet you.
If you married the last person you texted what would your last name be?
popham. and that is the plan one day. :)
Are you listening to anything right now?
on the radio - regina spektor
Do you think that two people could last together forever?
if they both wanted to last together forever, than they could.. its a two way street.
Does your best friend approve of the last person you kissed?
i wouldnt know who to call my best friend.
Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
yer, i was about before like this.
What do your friends call you?
sarah, .. i ocassionally still get sez but not much. :(
What about family?
sarah, bloss, lucy
Do you think your next kiss will be a mistake?
nope.
Your ex wants you back?
good for you.
Has someone ever made a promise with you and broke it?
yeah. it happens.
You had sex last night, didn't you?
yesterday arvo.
Do you have drama in your life?
not that much, but i dnt like it.
Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
nope.
Who was the last person to kiss your cheek?
kane.
If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they would care?
hell yeah. it would be like world war three..
Do you want to see somebody right now?
i want to see him by his self.
How many people have you kissed, that you can HONESTLY say you love?
two.
When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
just before.
I bet your going to kiss someone tonight, right?
well i live with my boyfriend, what do you think?
What did you do last night?
went to rgs. and came home at midnight to sleep.
What was your last phone conversation about?
uh, seeing where someone was. but obviously he lied to me, cause i saw him in a different place. :/
Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yea, it was at his house which is now my house. after we've been to the movies.
Name everyone in your inbox?
no.
Where is the person you miss the most?
i dont know who i miss the most.
Name one thing that you do every day?
wank. ;)
What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
i dont know, probably one of kanes clothes
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
sarah elise holt, please to meet you.
If you married the last person you texted what would your last name be?
popham. and that is the plan one day. :)
Are you listening to anything right now?
on the radio - regina spektor
Do you think that two people could last together forever?
if they both wanted to last together forever, than they could.. its a two way street.
Does your best friend approve of the last person you kissed?
i wouldnt know who to call my best friend.
Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
yer, i was about before like this.
What do your friends call you?
sarah, .. i ocassionally still get sez but not much. :(
What about family?
sarah, bloss, lucy
Do you think your next kiss will be a mistake?
nope.
Your ex wants you back?
good for you.
Has someone ever made a promise with you and broke it?
yeah. it happens.
You had sex last night, didn't you?
yesterday arvo.
Do you have drama in your life?
not that much, but i dnt like it.
Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
nope.
Who was the last person to kiss your cheek?
kane.
If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they would care?
hell yeah. it would be like world war three..
Do you want to see somebody right now?
i want to see him by his self.
How many people have you kissed, that you can HONESTLY say you love?
two.
When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
just before.
I bet your going to kiss someone tonight, right?
well i live with my boyfriend, what do you think?
What did you do last night?
went to rgs. and came home at midnight to sleep.
What was your last phone conversation about?
uh, seeing where someone was. but obviously he lied to me, cause i saw him in a different place. :/
Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yea, it was at his house which is now my house. after we've been to the movies.
Name everyone in your inbox?
no.
Where is the person you miss the most?
i dont know who i miss the most.
Name one thing that you do every day?
wank. ;)
What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
i dont know, probably one of kanes clothes
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
day 11 - the reason you believe you're still alive today.
well im not dead because:
i was rushed to hospital quick enough when i turned blue at 2 weeks old due to a needle i had.
i wasnt in dads truck when another truck driver hit him and complete took out the passanger side of the truck.
i didnt drown or get shocked by lighting in the horrible storm on colo river when i was about 9.
i had people help me through the tougher times of year 9, 10, 11 and 12..
i didnt hit anything when i spun out in my car the other week, due to being way to tired to be driving.
and the main reason is because God has a plan for me, and he's plan has brought me to be still living at this point in time. :)
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
i was rushed to hospital quick enough when i turned blue at 2 weeks old due to a needle i had.
i wasnt in dads truck when another truck driver hit him and complete took out the passanger side of the truck.
i didnt drown or get shocked by lighting in the horrible storm on colo river when i was about 9.
i had people help me through the tougher times of year 9, 10, 11 and 12..
i didnt hit anything when i spun out in my car the other week, due to being way to tired to be driving.
and the main reason is because God has a plan for me, and he's plan has brought me to be still living at this point in time. :)
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
a little devo.
i wanted to have a nice day, but nope i feel like crying. woo.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Saturday, October 08, 2011
day 10 - your week, in great detail
sunday.
went from kane's brother matts to kane's sisters becs. watched tv at becs for most of the day. fun life. her kids are too cute tho.
monday.
chilled with the kids some more, drove home, had to go to the doctors.. well out of hours gp cause it was a public holiday. cause well, i was not feeling my best. found the chemist to be closed. f my life right then. but it got better over night.
tuesday
chilled at home for the day, and got pizza for din dins. :) i love cheap tuesdays.
wednesday
had a job trial at beauty at the towers, think it went well. they did seem happy and i got $70 for the day. still dont know whether i got it yet. but eh. and below is just a basic make up i wore for the trial
.
thursday
was at home again, and had a nice decent sleep in. washed my car despite the fact that i knew it was going to rain, i wanted it be clean. cause i hadnt cleaned in like a month. not normal, just btw.
friday.
college. ew. 8 hours of that lil shit place. and counting down the days till its over. and just stayed at home that night, and only amusement was that the power went out at 10:30 and well i couldnt sleep after that which doesnt make sense. since it was quieter and darker. and below is my make up for the day
saturday.
had college this morning, but got to leave at 4. so that was a bonus. and now im waiting for dinner and then gonna get ready to go to rgs. yeaaah brah. it has been a while since ive been there, so time for me to go again.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
went from kane's brother matts to kane's sisters becs. watched tv at becs for most of the day. fun life. her kids are too cute tho.
monday.
chilled with the kids some more, drove home, had to go to the doctors.. well out of hours gp cause it was a public holiday. cause well, i was not feeling my best. found the chemist to be closed. f my life right then. but it got better over night.
tuesday
chilled at home for the day, and got pizza for din dins. :) i love cheap tuesdays.
wednesday
had a job trial at beauty at the towers, think it went well. they did seem happy and i got $70 for the day. still dont know whether i got it yet. but eh. and below is just a basic make up i wore for the trial
.
thursday
was at home again, and had a nice decent sleep in. washed my car despite the fact that i knew it was going to rain, i wanted it be clean. cause i hadnt cleaned in like a month. not normal, just btw.
friday.
college. ew. 8 hours of that lil shit place. and counting down the days till its over. and just stayed at home that night, and only amusement was that the power went out at 10:30 and well i couldnt sleep after that which doesnt make sense. since it was quieter and darker. and below is my make up for the day
had college this morning, but got to leave at 4. so that was a bonus. and now im waiting for dinner and then gonna get ready to go to rgs. yeaaah brah. it has been a while since ive been there, so time for me to go again.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
day 6 - a picture of you and your friends
not that keen on this photo, cause i look odd. but my bestest friends. loving hanging out with these two. oh and my boyfriend.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
Thursday, September 22, 2011
a poser?
everyone know its, i love to take photos of my self. so thought i would share it with you all as well. few favs below :)
p.s with the running i started. ive ran 10 times out of 18 days. not too happy with the effort since i didnt run sunday, mon, tues or wed. and only got back into it today. hopefully will improve.
sincerely, saraagh elise ♥
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